Strong Message

Today I was reading James, and the message I got from my readings was a strong one. When I first read James 3:14;16, my first thoughts were about others I know who are struggling with bitter jealousy and selfish ambitions. However, after reading it several times, I found that I had to apply those words to myself as well. I am angry and selfish at times. I have been jealous. To think that those feelings keep me from the truth, hence, keeps me from being with Christ, resulting having difficulty relating to God. It seems crazy because I never thought the consequences of those feelings were so dire. I guess I should, because, any sin can interfere with our relationship with God so as to not be at the level we could be at with Him.

To know that my bitter jealousy and self ambition makes me a liar against the truth is scary. That's heavy duty stuff! Then, as I read on, I find out that selfish ambition can be translated as strife. I think this means that whenever I try to vindicate myself to make myself feel better, I am lying against the truth.

Geez! How many times have I had thoughts (that I confess I delighted in) of showing up those who have hurt me? I have had thoughts about seeing those people sometime in the future and being wealthy, more successful, in better shape, and/or happier. But that's not enough! In my rich fantasy life, not only am I amazing, but I want to rub their noses in it! Sometimes the urge to "show them" is so strong, but really, what purpose does it serve? In the end, even if it really did happen, nothing would be accomplished. It's just a way to make ME feel better. I guess that is why it is called "selfish ambition".

And bitter jealousy?? Where do I start? I have been envious over what others have. I have been jealous of the attention others received, and frustrated that my life isn't more like someone elses. Anyone else ever feel that way? Guess what? That only leads back to selfish ambition! Ugh! What a vicious cycle!

And what are the consequences of lying against the truth? According to James 3:16, disorder and every evil thing. I hate disorder! I even organize my sock drawer! And every evil thing? Now that's just plain frightening. Then I researched this concept even further and found out that jealousy and self ambition also lead to degrading passions, a depraved mind, unrighteousness, greed, deceit, and untrustworthiness to name a few from Romans 1:26-32.

You see, you have to remember that Jesus Christ is the Truth (John 14:6). And if we are lying against Him, then we are misguided and can't hear His voice. In that state, is it any wonder why we are miserable?

However, if you have the truth in your heart, there is a HUGE attitude adjustment. In Psalm 15:2-3, it says that the person who speaks the truth in his heart, doesn't slander (or speak wrongfully against) his neighbor (i.e. others), does not do any evil to his neighbor, and he doesn't take up reproach (e.g start fights) with his friends (I am going to include family and spouses in this).

So, you can either be miserable in your bitter jealousy and selfish ambition, OR you can let it go and rely on the Truth and be free (John 8: 36;32). The idea of getting rid of the bitterness and strife that weighs my heart down sounds wonderful.

But how do I let go of all this turmoil inside? Just when I started to get despondent about that, I read John 8:31-32 again, where Jesus says that if we continue in His Word, then we are His disciples, and we will know the truth, and the truth will set us free. Bottom line: Believe, read your Bible, and pray a lot!